Monday, December 27, 2021

Gratitude for Some Good News

Dear Diary,

Well, I certainly hadn't intended to write another page in you this soon, but it turns out Blogspot won't let me initiate a comment on your pages, although in the past it's allowed me to answer others' comments.

So in order to deliver a small but important piece of good news, I have to write a whole page.  C'est la vie.

A couple of days ago I wrote about a man thus:

"I found a middle-aged white man hunkered down in this back doorway, which was blocked on the inside by a small display, so clearly not meant for regular use, but still, I was amazed he was allowed to be there.

"He courteously got out of my way to take the photo.  We talked some, and agreed to meet again so I could put him in touch with cold weather gear; he gave me his number so that could happen.  However, he ghosted me today."

He got back to me yesterday saying that he'd met someone who'd allowed him to stay for a few days.

I also have a co-worker who has taken in an old friend who was at risk of becoming homeless.  This has gotten him into hot water with his landlord, and when the friend recently asked to bring his new girlfriend, who is homeless, in with him, the landlord said flatly no.  I wasn't clear on all this, but was worried about her, and got into touch with my co-worker this weekend.  She's staying with a friend of hers.

They say "Charity begins at home."  I'm not yet housed so securely that I could, for example, have taken that man in myself.  But I can only gape in awe of those who are doing so, as the city has gotten colder than it got at any time while I was homeless.  Those generous people may never know it, but they have my thanks, and my hopes that my former peers never make them regret their generosity.


Sunday, December 26, 2021

Away from the Manger

Dear Diary,

In the Gospel of Luke, chapter 2, verse 7, we read:  "And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn."  This was because she (Mary) and her husband Joseph had traveled from their actual home in Nazareth to Bethlehem.

Jesus Christ, in other words, according to Luke (no other Gospel mentions these elements) was born similar to the veteran mentioned in part I of the previous page of this series - homeless by situation, but not by way of life.

There are not a lot of mangers in Seattle.  And there's a great deal more rain than there is in Nazareth and Bethlehem.  So much so, in fact, that the main issue for survival outside here is protection from rain, though cold, heat, and other circumstances can also kill.

The first page of this series was not just a brief, ironic news report.  It was also meant as a demonstration that the city is serious about keeping homeless people from using tents or vehicles to protect themselves from the rain.  Both tents and vehicles are useful, in Seattle, mainly on public property - parks or sidewalks, for tents; streets, for vehicles.  And even inconsequential public property like the rocks south of S King St under I-5 is now off limits.

Tents and vehicles have two other important traits, as shelter for the homeless, in comparison to their main competitors, sleeping bags and indoor shelters.  First, they enable the accumulation of property.  Second, they're very visible.

Now, it would be entirely cynical to think the city's leaders object to tents and vehicles because they're visible.  So I must conclude that the objection is that they allow homeless people to accumulate property.   Presumably the homeless are actually the sacrificial goats - look, more Bible! - of the capitalist system, the ones forbidden to accumulate the way everyone else is encouraged to.  How someone like me, or my best homeless friend, with paid storage, fits in, I couldn't speculate.

In any event, the second page of this series was not just an endless, loquacious, self-indulgent recounting of my memories.  It was also a demonstration of a couple of facts.  First, there probably aren't enough private non-housing doorways in Seattle for all the unsheltered homeless.  I ended up two miles from the place I spent my days.  Second, faced with enough homeless people, commercial land-owners will not tolerate them.  In Laurelhurst, I and my few peers were accepted.  In the U-District, the parts of it I lived in anyhow, we at least weren't interfered with much.  But on Capitol Hill, miles of fencing have been erected with the simple goal of keeping homeless people out in the rain.

Let's look at that phrase:  homeless people.  All of the homeless are members of a particular species, Homo sapiens.  And while we who belong to this species like to compliment ourselves on how diverse we are, we do have some things in common.

Most humans are adaptible.

Most humans are resourceful.

Most humans wish to survive.

I hear your readers objecting, dear Diary:  "But what about drug addicts?  The mentally ill?  The incompetent?"

And in fact, I'm pretty sure all three categories are over-represented among the homeless.  But I am evidence that the mentally ill can be adaptible, resourceful, and wish to survive.  I've met addicts who were the same way.

I'm also a relatively passive man, which is a more serious impediment, and one I'm not sure is actually over-represented among the homeless.

So what's my point?

I took the light rail a bunch this weekend, re-visiting the doorways I chose to sleep in on the basis of how dry they were.  I was awed by the size of those dry subway platforms.

There are many churches in town with dry naves.

If homeless people are in fact people, then sooner or later they'll notice these facts too.  Then what?

There are also many residential porches in Seattle.  The building I'm writing from has one.  Are the city's leaders really determined to make homeless people turn to these?  I gave an example, in part II of the second page of this series, of campers in a private home's doorway.  Don't assume it can't happen again.

Most humans can collaborate.  Homeless people famously can't - the sociological term is "disaffiliation".  But if during this cold, wet winter collaboration is the only way to survive, the sociologists may find themselves surprised.  It's happened here before, hasn't it?  "Nickelsville", that's called.

What will it be, city leaders?  Would you rather see thousands of unsheltered homeless people die in the rain, or work together against you, or metastasise throughout the city, or will you walk the city back from the precipice you're hurtling towards?

Good night, dear Diary.  I make no predictions as to when or what the next page will be, but I'm not forgetting you.


Doorways I Have Known, part III: Recent Years

Dear Diary,

We're almost done with this stroll down memory lane, which ends with visits to places of your memory as well as of mine.

Laurelhurst

In Laurelhurst I found, again, different circumstances.  There were far fewer homeless people around, but there was competition for doorways again, because there were also fewer of those.  Laurelhurst is a pretty wealthy neighbourhood, and people gave me money again.  Although I was in a certain amount of shock from the disasters of 2016 (my Milwaukee storage unit's sale) and 2017 (my laptop's theft) and from my frequent changes of address in 2016-2018, I wasn't anywhere near as lost and lorn as I'd been on Broadway, so I suspect the changes reflect more on the neighbourhoods I've lived in, as well as on the prevalence of homeless people in those neighbourhoods, than on my own bearing.  I'll mention specific gifts below.

3717 1/2 NE 45th St

Then and Now:  Marlai Thai Cuisine and Museum Quality Framing

I was a very bad neighbour during the couple of years I slept here.

Open Street Map well represents the jagged outline of the building at the southwest corner of 38th Ave NE and 45th.  This results in a whole series of doorways with differing amounts of dry suitable for sleeping in.  There's also considerable complexity where the individual soffits that furnish that dry meet.

So, in particular, the doorway I'm talking about here slopes downward toward Marlai, whose only connection with it is Marlai's west wall.  People therefore slept on the high ground, at the MQF end of the doorway.  But that's where the soffits meet, or actually, don't quite meet, and as a result, when it rains, it rains right down on those people.  Thanks to good drainage (and the whole doorway's facing north, the first north face I'd slept in), the low end, towards Marlai, stays dry through the most relentless rains.  I was frankly contemptuous of these peers' fecklessness.  I'd learnt on Broadway already to scope out new places on rainy nights - that's why I think I went back to Galerias in spring 2013, as a base from which to reconnoiter - and couldn't believe they hadn't bothered.

I had a weapon against them, too.  I'd by that point for years been sweeping any doorway I slept in.  When I found the doorway I preferred occupied, I just switched next door, to the actual doorway of MQF, and started sweeping; I tried to be quiet, but didn't exactly weep when I failed.  Of the two people I think I drove away from their bad spot, one tolerated that, but after a few days went away; the other reliably got up and left right away.

The first, the one who stayed through my sweeping, looked Hispanic, and I think he was probably an employee of the taco truck across the street.  Frankly, I thought they should've done better by him, and maybe they did once I showed up; for much of the time I slept there, music blared from that taco truck until the wee hours of the night.  The other, I eventually concluded, the one who responded immediately once I started sweeping, was a white guy who was a sort of modern-day hunter-gatherer, following a set rotation; I noticed that he arrived on the same day of the week, the same number of weeks apart.

I forget why, but when leaves started falling in autumn 2018, I missed a few days, and came back to find an artistic arrangement of leaves across the doorway.  Obviously I couldn't sleep on that, so the best I could do was sweep the leaves toward a dryer part of the high ground for the night, and then try to produce my own artistic arrangement in the morning.  At any rate, nobody took the trouble to complain to me.  By autumn 2019 the leaf thing was old hat.

This was a pretty heavenly place to sleep.  There were almost no passersby at night, except when the bars back west on 45th closed, so I had endless privacy for building my bed.  There was lots of space.  The taco truck wasn't close enough for its music to keep me awake.  I very slowly unwound.  This is where I was sleeping when I got my first cart, and at first I was determined to sleep under it, so I'd know immediately if someone was stealing it.  Gradually I got less concerned about that.  This was the first place I took my shoes off to sleep.  Sometimes when I was too tired to build my bed properly, I would get as far as laying down my sleeping bag and just crash on that for an hour or two, or a few times for the whole night, waking each time to find the as-yet un-emptied satchels around me untouched.  On many nights, homeless people did pass the doorway, but apparently none were tempted by my stuff.  (Once, one did rather insistently want a book, but happily settled for one I hadn't enjoyed.)

Once, in 2020 I think, after UW had closed, I slept late enough for the MQF opener to arrive, but otherwise I had few interactions with that store (which has a side door on this doorway that they consistently put furniture in front of).  Only, once a week a truck would arrive delivering glass, which was interesting to watch the first few times, and consistently woke me.  I remember that during the lockdown there was some reason I needed to get MQF's attention, and I had to try several times before getting through.

I had more contacts with Marlai; I may have done the opposite of conflating here, remembered more nights than there actually were, but I don't think so.  Once after they'd closed, but before they'd left, and so before I'd done more than sweep, a distraught woman showed up begging me to call the police.  The Marlai employees came out, and eventually the man she was running from arrived too; at one point he attacked one of the Marlai group.  Turned out they were a couple from some small town whose child was at Children's Hospital; she'd been worried about his stability for a while, but under this new stress he'd gotten drunk and violent, and she hoped a night in jail would calm him down.  None of us bystanders was all that comfortable with the outcome, and the Marlai employee chose not to press charges.

Once Marlai got a steam cleaning, and for some reason the guys doing it couldn't park in back and work from there, but had to park on 45th.  They apologised for delaying my sleep - and one of them, to make it clear he meant it, gave me a really large, really warm hooded coat, that I can wear over other coats.  At the time I told him I mainly wanted it to cover my cart, because with only one coat I had to choose between protecting my books and protecting myself.  But in fact I relied on it heavily while hiking for you last winter, dear Diary, and I expect to wear it again this week.

Not long after those events, the snow of 2019 came.  Marlai's crew the first night were amazed that I was willing to try to sleep there under those circumstances - though there wasn't much snow in the doorway - and pooled their tips to give me that night.

Richer people of Laurelhurst gave me much larger amounts later, that in fact contributed to my being housed now during the snow of 2021.  But the gifts I remember from that doorway are the coat and $24 in tips.  Both contributed to my welfare immediately.  When I went downtown, thinking I'd need to go inside the coldest night (but the forecasts were wrong), and anyway wanting to warm up by day, my backpack was stolen, and that $24 enabled me to buy what I most immediately needed to replace.

I've often thought I ought to pay some sort of rent to the spaces I occupied while homeless.  I did little things in the HUB and Savery Hall, and submitted call number corrections at Suzzallo Library, in that spirit.  I made a point of shopping at Half Price Books during the years I slept in their doorway.  But I haven't, yet, visited the surviving locations of Samurai Noodle; I'm relieved to hear that American Apparel is still in business; I've yet to replace the glasses I got while homeless, both pairs broken, but I should probably get one pair at Sound Eye and Laser (source of the new pair in "Stealing from the Homeless"), and another at One Hour Optical.

Well, Marlai had closed by the time I got there on Christmas Eve, MQF long before, so they too have to wait.  But I haven't forgotten.


3717 NE 45th St

Then and Now:  Museum Quality Framing

I'd continued acquiring books relentlessly even after Half Price Books closed, at Little Free Libraries and from the University District Food Bank.  I stored many at Suzzallo Library (which turned into months of worry when the lockdown came), but also carried many with me.  As a result, I needed to build a pretty tall stack wallward of my head, when building my bed.  This doorway has an architectural feature that gets in the way of that.  Also, its dry is smaller.  Finally, this is the doorway used by the glass deliveries.  So I didn't like sleeping here, which made me as ruthless as I've described over the other spot.


3605 1/2 NE 45th St

Then and Now:  Flooring America

I think I tried to build my bed here several times, but succeeded only once.  Its orientation was opposite what I was used to, there's a small electrical fixture marring the right angle I relied on, and there's what I think is a permanent stain on the concrete that looks just like a wet spot.  And you can see, dear Diary, the dry isn't all that wide.


University of Washington

For the first six months, the students were away, and the mice, they did play.  Things got gradually more crowded on campus during the 2020-2021 school year, but I was housed before the UW finally sort-of-fully re-opened this past autumn quarter.  There was never a large number of homeless people on campus during the lockdown, never an encampment, but I'm not sure the number shrank much from when the buildings were open, either.

UW normally doesn't allow anyone to use its outdoor electrical outlets.  And it normally doesn't allow anyone to sleep on campus.  Both of these rules were waived once the lockdown started (as the electrical one had been waived during 2019's snow, far as I experienced), but everyone knew they could be re-imposed at any time, in any particular circumstance.

The main places I used on campus during its lockdown, the places I took photographs of on Christmas Eve, are places I'd used before the lockdown, places that were among the reasons I always reached Laurelhurst, and before it University Way or even Roosevelt, after other homeless people did.

4205 Mary Gates Memorial Drive NE

Then and Now:  Ceramic and Metal Arts Building

This building is in the East Campus, which is downhill from the main campus.  It has a west-facing courtyard that can be a good place to rest after the hike downhill or before the one uphill, and there's a bench for the purpose.  Also, it has University Wi-Fi, though not an electrical outlet.  But it has very, very little reliable dry.  I slept on that bench, sitting up, watching out for the police who liked to take breaks in the parking lot adjacent, any number of times in the summers of 2019 and 2020, and each time fantasised that that could continue, forgetting what this photo shows all too clearly:


Some faculty member or administrator took the trouble, in September 2020, to warn me that I couldn't continue using that bench that year.  The first students to return, that quarter, were the athletes and the artists, and thanks to social distancing, several classes were expected to meet in the courtyard that fall.  It was kind of him to give me that warning, but both of us had forgotten the rain which would've enforced my absence anyway.

4110 East Stevens Way NE

Then and Now:  Padelford Hall

Padelford Hall and a connected multi-level parking garage sprawl across the hill between Central and East campuses.  I became familiar with the intricacies of the climb through Padelford in my first months in Laurelhurst, before the cart.  I liked to work late at night in this space near the top, which as you can see, dear Diary, has a sort of desk.

Once I had the cart, I couldn't do that any more, had to hike outside the whole way, but come the lockdown, I remembered a plaza towards the top with acres of dry (OK, that's an exaggeration, but ...).  You, dear Diary, were born there.  I say you were born of a visit to Magnuson Park, but the place I actually got Blogspot to accept your first pages was this plaza.

It had several disadvantages, however, as a place to spend the lockdown.  It had electrical outlets and Wi-Fi, and even a vending machine, but every place to sit within reach of this plaza is subject to rain.  I also had to disassemble my cart to get it down the stairs to the plaza, which wasn't any kind of fun in the rain.

It's also heavily frequented, and as we learnt more about social distancing, that became more and more problematic.  I took to hiding in the deadest corner of the plaza, traffic-wise, this one:


Another disadvantage, for me personally, at least, was harassment.  This mostly took the form of theft.  I experienced, I think, six thefts at UW during the lockdown, and four of those were here.  But also, at one point someone called the police on me.  This is when a police officer informed me that removing my satchels from my cart constituted "camping", and as such was illegal.  I wish I were making this up.  And on the day in the summer of 2020 when my phone was stolen while charging on a bench outside this plaza, someone took the trouble to do Number One in the corner I'd been using.  I thought the photo above would show the remaining salt stain, but apparently not.  The friend who gave me the carts knows a criminologist who agreed with me that there was a pattern here.  Many, many departments are headquartered in Padelford Hall, and while one of those is Mathematics, most of the rest are pillars of the academic left:  English, Gender Studies, you name it.  But someone in that building, I think, did not like coming into regular contact with a smelly homeless man.

(That said, that isn't why I'm not linking to Padelford's home page above.  Padelford has not physically closed this plaza off to the homeless, which is my criterion, though I assume the rule against sleeping is re-imposed.  I'm not linking because I can't find anything suitable as a home page for Padelford.)

So I moved on.  There are outlets in the Allen Library mall, and there's a bench, but it's carefully placed so that when it rains, rain will usually blow onto it.  And when it's not raining, that bench is pretty popular.  I didn't spend much time there (though enough for one of the other thefts to happen), but rather in two other places.

4069 Spokane Lane

Then and Now:  Kane Hall

Again I didn't find a reasonable home page for the building.  But in this case there's also a clear sign of disapproval of how the homeless behaved here during the lockdown.

Kane Hall has two doorways on its north side with electrical outlets.  As of March 2020, the western doorway's outlet didn't work, but the eastern doorway's did.  So on days I wasn't lucky enough to get a better place, such as the one next on this tour, I would charge my phone here, or later in the lockdown, the battery I used to charge my phone.

 

There's no seating within the doorways, but near the eastern doorway, there's a bunch of seating on a plaza.

So for one thing, that's the remaining theft; in summer 2020, while I dozed on that plaza, the battery was stolen while charging.  I tried a couple of ways to replace it before finding one that worked, and that discouraged long hikes for you those weeks, dear Diary.  After that, I only allowed myself to doze when I wasn't charging anything, which made for some pretty weary six-hour stints of battery charging.

But for another thing, Kane Hall's doorways were often appallingly messy during the lockdown.  This is because some kids, probably from Roots, made Kane their headquarters, and some of these kids evidently hadn't learnt anything at all about cleanliness in their lives.  Most of the activity was actually upstairs from the doorways; Kane has a gigantic semi-outdoor second floor, maybe even really an acre of dry, partly protected from the wind, with outlets ...  Pretty much all that a crowd of homeless kids could want.

 

But it seems this particular epicene couple were most often the ones crowded out from there, to spill their sodas and tear apart their ramen cups in the same doorway I used.  I normally considered the cart's wheels enough insulation between my stuff and pretty much any kind of dirt, but hesitated on a regular basis to drive them through what those kids laid down.  And the thing is, I'm pretty sure I saw the woman of the couple. once, presenting herself as the hip edgy person appropriate to her age online and in conversations, with no sign of the filth she seemed content to live in.

Well, there have been consequences.


That's the outlet in the doorway, not one of those upstairs, but they're all covered like that now.

4275 East Stevens Way NE

Then and Now:  Bank of America Executive Education Center

This was the place where I wrote many of your pages, dear Diary, where I did many of the other things I whiled away the empty hours of the lockdown with.  For some reason the builders of this building put a huge porch in, and then ran a bench along the long side of that porch.

 

I'd stopped at this location before the lockdown to work or watch K-dramas late.  Only once had I encountered anyone who belonged to the building, a couple apparently of South Asian descent of whom the man sneeringly insisted that my only goal was to sleep there.  I think, a few weeks later, I took him up on that offer once or twice, but mostly what I wanted that bench for, in 2018, was a place to use Wi-Fi.  Once I'd moved to Laurelhurst, it was out of my way, and I don't think I turned to it early in the lockdown.

But as Padelford became increasingly untenable and Kane increasingly awful, I was more and more inclined to come here, carefully sitting at the far end of the bench from the door for social distancing.  The reaction from within the building was split.  I'm pretty sure ordinary employees didn't pay much attention.  One, a Muslim, once gave me a sandwich she'd bought, which had turned out to have bacon in it.  But the UW had inaugurated an unarmed security force, alongside its armed police, shortly before the lockdown, and someone within that building thought it was a good idea to get these security guards to get rid of me.  They threatened me with prosecution for loitering, and called police on me, who wearily explained that loitering laws were not enforceable on public property.  This cycle happened two or three times.  But compared to the problems at Padelford, this was trivial.

I don't think anyone in my earlier life would've predicted that English scholars would persecute me, but business scholars would embrace me, but that's more or less what I found during UW's lockdown.


As my time to get housed approached, I changed many of my ways.  Some events had led me to realise that the Stranger issues I'd been using under my sleeping bag weren't actually doing anything to keep me warm, and I finally pitched them all into my storage sometime, I think, in January.  In February I lived in SeaTac, as you know, dear Diary.  And in March I simply could not convince myself to build my bed again, so spent essentially every night, until I moved into the home whence I'm writing, on that bench.

But months before that, I'd moved to a different neighbourhood altogether, off and on, for the Wi-Fi.

View Ridge

After my phone was stolen, my new phone didn't have University Wi-Fi until a friend on the faculty figured out how to confer it on me, around Thanksgiving.  So for several months, if I wanted to do anything with Wi-Fi, I had to trudge to a public library.  For things like updates, the University branch was good enough, but it was hard to find a place to sit that also got a good signal from inside the building, to say nothing of the competition, so sustained work had to happen elsewhere.

6801 35th Ave NE

Then and Now:  Seattle Public Library, Northeast branch

I've more or less told you this story before, dear Diary, when it happened, and it doesn't really need much re-hashing.  There was competition here too, both for the Wi-Fi and for the three sheltered benches on the library's porch.  There was a man who never spoke to me, but made his disapproval of my sleeping there, far too close to where he wanted to sleep, very clear.  Library staff were unhappy with me but took no definite actions until "curbside pickup" came along, which they used as an excuse to remove all three benches.  By then I'd already tired of my silent critic, and told him I'd be elsewhere at night, so slept in the View Ridge Playfield shelter.

The main reason I've put this byway into this page is that two of the benches are back, and actually have been back for months - I took the photo below in late September.  The backed one on which that man preferred to sleep, the one honouring Sahir Dibee, has been replaced with an unbacked one similar to the other two.


I'm greatly relieved that at least one thing "those awful homeless" could have been blamed for has not, after all, come to pass.

Well, dear Diary, this is the end of our walk down memory lane, and of part two of the current series of pages I'm writing in you.  Part three is, like part one, much shorter, and I hope to write it this evening, but, well, this series has repeatedly frustrated my timing hopes, so we'll see.  Happy hours, and if necessary days, until then.


Doorways I Have Known, part II: The U-District

Dear Diary,

For most purposes, I considered myself to have moved to the University District in autumn 2014, although during the first months of 2015, I worked, and so had to spend at least some nights on Capitol Hill.  I stayed in the U-District for roughly four years, then moved to Laurelhurst; either way, though, I actually spent my days at UW.  Come the lockdowns, I increasingly also spent nights at UW, until this year I got housed.  So in contrast to part I's concerning a single street, this part bounces around, and so will the next.

I'd forgotten, until I went back and looked at Broadway, the extent to which I was part of a community of homeless people there in 2012-2014.  But by the time I moved north, I figured I'd learnt enough.  I hadn't, really, but since that was what I thought, I avoided the main concentrations of homeless people in the area.  (I also knew by then that many of the homeless in the U-District were kids; although in 2014 I wasn't yet 50, I certainly wasn't a kid.)  Roughly speaking, having spent some hours today re-reading e-mails I sent in those years, I now think I spent 2014-2017 trying desperately to return to the housed world (but at the same time diving ever deeper into Korean TV and music), and 2018-2019 recovering from that effort's total failure.

People's reactions to me were different here.  Until the pandemic, I suffered only one serious theft, and not where I slept.  On the other hand, considerably fewer people gave me money.  I'm not sure whether that's because I was more confident, projecting less of a lost look, or because people in the U-District have less money to give than partiers on Broadway, but either way, it was true.  Finally, both actual acts of violence against me while I was homeless, though relatively minor, happened in the U-District, at the hands of young men who were probably college students.

The University District

4709 Roosevelt Way NE

Then:  Half Price Books

Now:  University Volkswagen extension

The main place I slept from 2014 to 2017 was Half Price Books' doorway.  I'd already started sleeping there when visiting the U-District overnight, pretty much from the beginning of my homelessness; this amused the people who worked at the Capitol Hill HPB, where I spent a lot of time both before and after becoming homeless, until it closed.

Roosevelt was, at that time, betwixt and between.  There were homeless people camped in University Playground, Roots was near University Way, and each was just three blocks from Roosevelt, but for some reason the two worlds didn't meet.  Roosevelt didn't have the crowds of rich students to try to beg from or interact with, it didn't have tent space, it didn't even have many doorways.

The doorway I used, I shared with the customers of the hookah lounge down the street.  Throughout the time I stayed there, visitors chafed at the idea that anyone would appropriate this perfectly good place to smoke a cigarette out of the rain, and because it took a long time for wet footprints to dry on rainy nights, I spent quite a few nights either staying up late, or in one of the alternate spots mentioned below.  But the regulars got used to me, and even tried to intercede with the visitors from time to time.  One regular gave me a job lead, though it didn't pan out.

This was where I first started using my copies of Seattle Weekly and The Stranger as sleeping bag pads.  That resulted from another suggestion from a regular, who pointed out that I wouldn't care about wet pavement if I had something between my sleeping bag and the wet spot.  I cared anyway, because I cared about those papers, but not as much; occasionally that gained me an extra half-hour of sleep.

I was sleeping here in January 2016 when my Milwaukee storage unit, into which I'd put most of the payment for "Stealing from the Homeless", was sold for non-payment of rent.  Before that time I'd already started accumulating books from HPB's "recycling" dumpster, but after that I was on a mission.  My books in Milwaukee had been taken to an HPB there; I wanted to see what I could replace in Seattle.  Not much, but it became an excuse for an extravaganza of book acquisition.  Because I didn't change clothes often, I was unwilling to climb into HPB's trash dumpster, but others happily did that, and I accumulated a fair number of CDs and DVDs from those they pulled out of the dumpster but left behind.  For a time I had two umbrellas, and was willing to use them to try to pull something I really wanted out of that dumpster, too.

Ironically, all this, which one would think would lead to serious annoyance on the part of the HPB staff, actually led, in the final months, to their seeing me much, much more favourably.  A local guy apparently lost a family member, and reacted to his grief by going around setting fires.  (Or at least this is the story he told that got him out of prosecution.)  One fire he set was in that recycling dumpster.  I was one of several homeless people in the vicinity who responded; my particular contribution happened to include the actual call to the fire department, and although the flames never threatened the building, once the employees found that out, I quite unfairly became their fair-haired boy.  I was happily able to sort of return the favour not much later.  Some man came and left a bag of housewares next to me, claiming I'd find them useful.  I'm guessing he'd fought with the intended recipient; they were small, fancy items, for most of which no homeless man would have any use at all.  After a couple of nights during which nobody reclaimed the bag, I handed it to the store's assistant manager, for the benefit of newcomers to Seattle on the staff, keeping only a small cutting board.

Sometime probably in 2016, I saw a man down by Trader Joe's, on the next block, weaving around waving a sleeping bag in the air.  Maybe a quarter hour later, he'd made his way to the HPB doorway, but his sleeping bag hadn't.  So he proposed to share mine.  He made it clear that this was a sexual overture, explaining that he'd used to be popular with ladies, but not so much any more - he was both visibly and audibly a formerly handsome ageing drunk - so he thought he'd try changing his luck.  Strangely, I wasn't interested, and this led to my avoiding this doorway for several months.  I'm actually unclear on the chronology of my stays in two other doorways in the U-District, but suspect I went to only one at that time, then returned to HPB for its final months in 2017.

What made the HPB doorway reliably dry was an awning, but that awning was deteriorating the whole time I slept there, and not long after they closed, had deteriorated so much that the doorway was no longer reliably dry, and when University VW came in, the awning came down.  So although I doubt UVW really cares what happens in that doorway, which they don't use, I've never seen anyone else try to sleep there.  I tried again occasionally later, but the hookah bar's clientele seemed completely to have turned over, and it just wasn't any fun, besides being wet when it rained.



The next two places were my alternate sites, for when I couldn't wait for HPB's doorway to dry out.  My main one:

4555 Roosevelt Way NE

Then:  Princeton Review

Now:  Academy for Precision Learning

This has a large dry, but not a reliable one; the pavement slopes down toward the building, and sometimes water leaps the gaps in it that, under other circumstances, create the dry.  Also, this is the first place I was physically attacked while homeless; a young man passing by one night kicked me in my back, though not hard.  So I really didn't like to sleep here, but still sometimes had to.


1105 NE 47th St

Then:  Vacant

Now:  7-Eleven, back door

This was the third place I found open last night, besides the two places already mentioned on Broadway.  What's more, I found a middle-aged white man hunkered down in this back doorway, which was blocked on the inside by a small display, so clearly not meant for regular use, but still, I was amazed he was allowed to be there.

He courteously got out of my way to take the photo.  We talked some, and agreed to meet again so I could put him in touch with cold weather gear; he gave me his number so that could happen.  However, he ghosted me today.  I ended up deciding I couldn't in good conscience keep my sleeping bags, though they're where I actually continue to sleep, not having bought a bed yet, given the impending weather; if I'd found him tonight, he'd have them now, but instead a plainly confused young white man, who reminded me a bit of myself in 2012, on Broadway, got them.

(By the way, dear Diary, I misinterpreted the evidence this morning.  Tonight I saw the face of the guy who was under a blanket on Broadway this morning, and he's definitely white.  I was going by his hands, so maybe he just had gloves on.)

I'm not sure I slept in this doorway more than once.  I'd gotten used to bigger spaces, and couldn't make this smaller one work.


Next, such neighbours as I had on or near Roosevelt.

4751 Roosevelt Way NE

Then and Now:  A private home

There was a group of men, probably American Indian, who used to sleep in one of this house's two doorways, with their legs sticking out into the wet.  Since I normally took 50th to get to HPB, I saw them quite often.  They spent a lot of time making fun of each other, and were happy to change pace by making fun of me instead; I took it poorly, but we had one or two civil interactions as well.  They flatly refused to believe that they were actually sleeping in a private doorway until the home's owner finally boarded it up.  I think they were already gone by the time of the fire.


911 NE 50th St

Then:  The Seven Gables Theatre

Now:  A vacant lot

Each night, someone set up a kind of fortress on the theatre's porch, and then took it down each morning.  (I'd rejected sleeping there long before, because of the wooden floor, I think a mat, and also the theatre's late hours.)

I met a man the night of the HPB dumpster fire.  This man later chased the pyro for blocks; although the pyro got away, the other man's description enabled a later arrest.  So this man was the real hero of that night.

I didn't know that at the time, though, and didn't recognise him when we met again in Laurelhurst, probably in 2018.  He told me that he was both of the people described in the above paragraphs, and thought he'd been looking out for me when I slept at HPB, too.  (When did he find the time to do that, what with all the fort-building?)  He was a black man, somewhat younger than me and somewhat taller.  The last I saw of him, he was upset over the disappearance of some pallets he'd stored in a Laurelhurst woods, and he left on a bicycle.

The theatre closed in 2017, like HPB and Ristorante Doria - basically all the shops on the block were put out of business at least partly by long-running construction across the street at UVW, except a massage shop that I think is still a Seattle Police Department sting, and the hookah lounge.  Apparently, in December 2020, when the building was occupied by squatters (a fact heavily emphasised by KING), it burned down.


A false alarm:

4746 11th Ave NE

Then:  Seattle Behavior Consulting and Therapy

Now:  Apparently vacant

I was firmly convinced, for years of my homelessness, that the only proper way to comb my hair was in front of glass, even though I rarely looked.  (Now I routinely comb my hair nowhere near a mirror.  Go figure.)  When HPB put in its windows treatments that are still there, I started combing my hair on the porch of this place, which I'd never have considered for sleeping on.  Every single time, this elicited a swift and emphatic security response, as if I'd slept there too.  Now, mental health places make efforts to protect their clients' privacy, which the layout of this corner store must have made difficult, so I can understand instructions to security to watch for people hanging out on the porch, but we're talking 7 A.M. here, so I still think it was strange.

My purpose in combing my hair there was that the glass was out of the way of pedestrians, which basically no glass further along on my way to Safeway, where I daily anticipated meeting people I knew, was.  I don't remember how I ultimately solved the problem, or maybe it was obviated by events (my moving, for example).


Now the other two places where I sustainedly slept in the U-District.

5030 Roosevelt Way NE

Then and Now:  Scarecrow Video

This was the second or third place, after Hardware and perhaps what's now Lifelong's side door on Broadway, where I slept despite a warning sign.  There's currently a "Conditions of Entry" sign in their window, as shown in the photo below; I don't remember whether that was the sign I worried about then.

I remember sleeping there for months, maybe even more than a year.  (If so, this is where I was sleeping in November 2017 when my fourth laptop was stolen - though at a UW library, not here - and I more or less gave up.)  Already on Broadway I'd learned that it was important to dry the soles of my shoes before going to bed (most of my homelessness, I didn't want to risk theft of my shoes, which actually happened one day to one of the Indians mentioned above).  At HPB (and One Hour Optical) I'd also started sweeping the doorway with those dried-out soles.  At Scarecrow I wore out a pair of shoes or two sweeping, because that's one huge doorway.  (Wet leaves were common, and several times, for some strange reason, someone spilled a large amount of popcorn across the doorway.)

I remember two endings to my stay at the other place, and only one ending to this one.  Also, I sent an e-mail in 2018 saying I was sleeping in a really big doorway (almost the only mention, in all those e-mails I re-read today, of my sleeping arrangements).  So I think I came here from HPB after HPB closed, and not during 2016, but I'm really not sure.


There are no ideal options for this doorway.  Scarecrow's night return slots are on one of its walls, the main doors on the other.  I chose to block the main doors.  Staffers mentioned to me that some customers were still afraid to use the night return slots while I was there.  Also, although I always waited until all the employees were gone, there was someone who liked to come in before I even woke up in the morning, something like 5 A.M., and apparently resented having to use the back door.

Also, there's an affordable housing building across the street, whose residents liked to hang out outside.  A rather more annoying foible I'd developed than the hair-combing one was that I didn't want any woman to see certain stages of my bed-building.  Some nights, at this location, that tic kept me up really late.

The end came one night when I got sick, and actually vomited into my sleeping bag.  I'm pretty sure to this day that I got it all, but I thought I really had to warn Scarecrow staff in case the smell lingered, and of course the only person I could reach was the one who resented me.  After I'd washed my sleeping bag, the next night, while I was still sweeping that doorway, a police car came by, and the officer told me the store had requested them to deter anyone from being there at night.

This is the only place where I slept while homeless that called the police on me, and with a story behind it that can only smirch their names, but my interest in older Korean TV dramas is probably going to drive me to apply for membership sometime in the next year.  Life is strange.

5034 University Way NE

Then and Now:  Christian Science Reading Room

I think this is where I retreated from the man with the insulting come-on to.  Appropriate, perhaps.  I also think this is where I went after Scarecrow kicked me out.  So two stays between 2016 and 2018, if I have the chronology right.  Another memory claims I came back in 2019; if so, that was rather bad behaviour on my part, but, I think, understandable.

My only sleep site on the Ave was far enough north that there weren't vast hordes of students walking past, but still quite a few.  Both preserving the dry area, and dealing with my worry about women seeing me build my bed, were very hard here. 

On the other hand, this was the only place that supplied me with things to read while drying my shoes, so I wouldn't have to unwrap the books I'd bagged for the trip from the UW.  To this day they always have two pages of the latest Christian Science Monitor displayed at one end of their front windows, and two pages each of the Christian Bible and of Mary Baker Eddy's Science and Health at the other.  I don't know about now, but each time I stayed there the pages shown changed several times per week.  I liked reading the Monitor, and considered it my duty, each time I did so, also to read the others, which was fine with me as regards the Bible, but I came to dislike both Eddy's ideas and her style, which left me feeling rather awkward sleeping there.

I had one temporary and one lasting problem with the neighbours there.  I don't mean homeless people.  The lasting problem was the farmers' market setting up very early each Saturday, a day when I could normally have afforded to sleep somewhat later.

I think the first end of my stays at this doorway came when I was attacked much more seriously than the kick at the Princeton Review one.  One night my hands were full because I was eating, and a very drunk, very tall young East Asian-descended man demanded that I shake his hand.  I refused, gesturing with the food in my hand, and although at that point several of his friends caught up with him and did what they could to restrain him, he worked himself up into a rage over my refusal of his friendship, and punched me, knocking me out briefly, and breaking the glasses I'm wearing right now, which I'd only gotten the year before.  I couldn't even find all the pieces, so I originally reported the incident to the police as a theft, then had to amend that once I finally located the rest of them.  I tend to be slow to react to things, so am not sure I immediately returned to HPB, but I was probably happy to within days.

During my second stay, if not also my first, some of the neighbours hung out on the east porch of University Heights.  At first I thought they were homeless people, and I still think at first they were, but over the months people on bicycles showed up whom I interpreted as drug dealers.  Because of my hangup over women watching me build my bed, I kept an eye on that porch, and I'm pretty sure none of its denizens appreciated that.


One night in, probably, 2018, a woman came up to me around 2 or 3 A.M.  She whined that she was homeless, and had lost her "protector".  She wanted me to be her new one.  Thing is, I was pretty sure I recognised her as one of the putative dealers' customers.  So I refused.  She then asked for warmer clothing than she had on.  As it happened, I had a jacket to spare.  It had some sentimental value, once a gift and long of good use, but was worn out, probably even had holes in it.  But I could spare it, so I gave it to her.  At which point her pose of homelessness vanished; because the jacket had holes in it, it was unacceptable, and she drove the point home by physically tearing it into very small pieces, which she left for me to clean up.  I took this whole episode as an explicit warning from the drug dealers, and left for Laurelhurst the next night.

I'm tolerably confident in the reality of my 2019 stay.  What happened was that year's snow, closing the UW.  For three days I went downtown, and although I didn't actually stay at the Seattle Center Exhibition Hall shelter, after being told that three separate places I tried to build my bed were unacceptable, I thought I'd picked up bedbugs there or at the Armory.  Now, people like to blame all vermin on homeless people's poor hygiene.  In the case of rats, say, there's some truth to that - ever since the sweep described in the first part of this series, I've been seeing a rat run across that rocky area every night.  But in reality, bedbugs like hiding places of kinds homeless people are usually ill-equipped to supply.  So I wasn't really worried that I'd keep the bedbugs, but that I'd carry them to wherever I next slept.  In this context, I think I must have cold-bloodedly decided that a reading room was more likely to have experience with the problem than the retail stores in whose doorways I slept in Laurelhurst, and so spent a few days there until confident I wasn't carrying them any more.  I then visited while the room was open to warn them of the potential problem.

What convinces me that this stay happened, despite the slur it is on my character, is that I'm pretty sure I remember a time when those drug dealers were no longer visiting U-Heights, and feeling very smug over that.


 

So I'm sorry, dear Diary, to disappoint your estimate of your author, but I hope you can forgive me.  There's at least one other bad thing to come, but it's no longer officially Christmas, I obviously can't meet even my revised schedule for this series, but it's time to try to sleep without my sleeping bags.  Good night, dear Diary.  I'll be telling you more tomorrow, obviously.



Saturday, December 25, 2021

Doorways I Have Known, part I: Broadway

Dear Diary,

It was too late for me to write the entire second page of this series last night, or even half the page, and that alone has wrecked my schedule.  I would be writing all Christmas day, except that I incurred an obligation last night, but obviously I want all this done so I can spend at least some time at home.

My family all live far away.  I have aunts in West Coast cities, but have never known them well.  My siblings are all in the Midwest, and I haven't seen any of them, nor their children, face to face since I came here fifteen years ago.  Although this December, thanks to Seattle's wonderful minimum wage, I have more money than I've had any of those previous fifteen Decembers, it isn't enough, nor is the COVID situation promising enough, to make travel doable.  So at this most sentimental of American holidays, sentimentality being one thing I like much better than many modern Americans, I don't actually have much to get sentimental about.

So yesterday morning I ate a Safeway deli salad bought with the last of my food stamps, and then ate tons of carbohydrates, just as I had while homeless.  Then I listened to the undeservedly unknown sad R&B songs of BGH4 (link in Korean).  Most of their best songs are at YouTube, but not all (link in Korean); in 2015, probably, I downloaded them from a since-departed illegal site, but in 2021 I was able to buy them lawfully.  I think BGH4 remain my favourite of the Korean idol girl groups I've encountered through Korean TV dramas, despite the competing claims of Melody Day, Bebop who went busking (the recorded version does have better sound), and even 4minute and their subgroup 2Yoon (17 min).  (Those groups' drama songs that led me to research them:  Melody Day, Bebop, 4minute.  I'm pretty sure I researched 4minute early in 2016, the others later that year or in 2017.  Some linked uploads have English translations, most don't.)

Anyway, after the BGH4 albums, fully stoked with sentiment, I shaved, showered and changed - something I'm guessing most homeless people in Seattle didn't get the chance to do yesterday - and went hiking back to the places I slept while homeless.  It had occurred to me that the evening of Christmas Eve offered an ideal chance to visit and photograph those doorways without staying up too late, and without worrying about the businesses still being open.  (Only three, in fact, were, in the whole catalogue.)  Or for that matter about homeless people already being in possession.  (Only one, actually in a doorway of one of the open businesses, at that.)  It had also occurred to me, dear Diary, that you deserved more details about my homelessness than the "eight years" (actually eight and a half) with which I usually dismiss most of it.

So while I listen to the also undeservedly forgotten hard rock of The Swimmin' Fish, whom I researched in 2015 before even finding BGH4, only a few of whose best songs are at YouTube (a counter-example, link in Korean), and who actually recorded a Christmas album I now legally own, let's stroll down memory lane...

To start, I should note that I was both homeless (which has a more capacious meaning) and actually on the streets for a month or three of 2003, in the autumn, in Madison, Wisconsin.  I was really bad at it.  At the beginning, I spent much of my remaining money on a one-week stay at a legal campsite on the outskirsts of Stoughton, which small town turned out to have no jobs.  Then, back in Madison, I spent most nights wandering aimlessly, trying to convince myself that this doorway or that would serve for sleep.  In Madison I actually visited a shelter, only to flee in horror.  The second time I was caught sleeping in a university library, I was punished by being denied permission to enter without a lot of rigmarole.  Fortunately, my social network wasn't then the wrecked thing it is now, and I stayed with two friends for a month each (still within many definitions of "homeless", but definitely not on the streets) before going back home to Mom.

So when I realised I was going back to the streets in August 2012, I was determined to do a better job.  For example, among the first places I went were DSHS for food stamps, and the Urban Rest Stop to find out how I could shower.  I was just too tired at first to figure out how to do what I hadn't planned ahead.  I knew people weren't allowed to sleep in parks, but anyway crashed on a hill in Cal Anderson for a few minutes before being woken.  I tried sleeping on the stairway in the Streissguth Gardens, which may not then have been an official city park, but anyway was a stupid place to try to sleep, since people, against my expectation, actually do use those stairs all night.  I'm not sure how long I stayed confused, but the first place I remember going more than one night was on Broadway, and on Broadway I stayed thereafter, as long as I stayed on Capitol Hill.

Broadway E

611

Then:  Under renovation

Now:  Ishoni Yakiniku

Like many homeless people, I figured a vacant business site was more likely to tolerate a sleeper than an occupied one.  In this case, I wasn't even actually sleeping in the doorway proper, which I already knew wouldn't work for me.  Instead, I was sleeping on a ledge south of the doorway.  This one:


As best I remember, during that renovation, it wasn't quite that narrow, but it was still a preposterously narrow place to sleep.  However, note something important in that photo, dear Diary:  the dry.  "Dry pavement" is too long to think, every time I had occasion to think it, those eight years, and is anyway slightly imprecise, since some of the dry I've used has been bricks, a little bit, not included in either half of this page, a mat, and so on; in this case, not even pavement, but a ledge above the pavement.  Anyway, in that photo you see some genuine dry, but far too little of it.  I kept falling off, which was problematic even though it wasn't raining then.

Another illustration of dry, or why Seattle bus shelters are actually pretty bad places to shelter from rain.  This, on the UW campus, is unusually sheltering.

 

To this day, I try to avoid walking with wet shoes on dry.

I no longer remember which came first, the new restaurant (Galerias, a Mexican place) opening, or the rain starting.  I do remember that the new restaurant did something or other that actually narrowed the effective ledge; I doubt now whatever that was has been reversed.

My chronology is hopelessly confused here, because I'm positive I remember becoming homeless August 23, 2012, but I remember waking up after a very loud graduation night, at this location, and finding five $20s under my head.  Makes no sense, but there you go.  My best guess is that I came back here briefly after leaving the next place, and the graduation coincided with that return.  Or maybe I've confused "graduation" with "Halloween"; I may have stayed there that late.

This is the first of the three businesses I found still open, unsurprising since it's where I started last night.

201

Then and Now:  Rite Aid

I never slept here, or anywhere else besides 611 on the west side of Broadway, as best I can remember.  I found the people who did sleep here, whom I usually categorised as "Wendy and Lucys", rather disorganised.  I'm sure Rite Aid has, over the years, taken various measures against those people, but it hasn't, so far as I know, made any architectural moves, or anything comparably drastic.  They don't actually sleep in the doorway anyhow, but in a large paved area off to one side of it, under a projection of the building.

Oh, also, I suspect Rite Aid was still open then last night, but I wasn't actually interested in their doorway any more than campers are.

Rather, my focus was a water fountain that, when working, ran at all seasons.

It isn't working now.


200

Then:  American Apparel

Now:  Kitanda Espresso and Acai

Broadway was pretty crowded with homeless people then.  This had some comforts - in my process of learning how to be homeless, I could learn from others' experience - but also some drawbacks, one of which was competition for doorways.  So I figured I was doing my bit by sleeping here.  It's a very short doorway, actually short enough that even though I'm a very short man, I had to curl up in sleep to make it work.

Also, I don't know who else in town remembers this, but American Apparel stayed open late and often had workers stay after.  So when I could sleep was unpredictable.  As a result, I became one of those homeless people who would park on the benches in front of the Capitol Hill branch library for some time in the evening, leading to those benches' removal.  Finally, although there's normally a fair amount of dry here, a sufficiently windy rain from the west reduces that, and would keep me up waiting for the space to dry.  But I was doing my part in relieving the door shortage, and didn't leave until after some tagger included an image of a sleeper in his etching on the store's wall.  (That wall has been replaced.)

People I saw sleeping there last summer followed a strategy I don't understand, but will explain as best I can with reference to the next doorway.

Nobody can sleep there now.  Kitanda apparently decided it was bad for business.


202

Then:  Vacant, then some tea shop

Now:  Hi Tea Cafe

I never slept here, but the "courteous veteran" I mentioned in Stealing from the Homeless", a man rather taller than me?  He slept here, but only in summer, when dry is abundant everywhere.  At most, maybe he could fit his upper torso in there, as well as his head.  This posture is how I saw people sleeping in what is now Kitanda's doorway, probably in summer 2020 when I was writing about Cal Anderson Park.

This would've been after I'd already moved north on Broadway, in summer 2014.  He told me he normally lived housed elsewhere, but had decided to come visit his home town without bothering with a hotel.

206

Then:  Castle Megastore and The Highline

Now:  Blade & Timber and The Highline

There were usually multiple homeless people hanging around this very large, complex dry, waiting for the bar to close.  Sometimes there were conflicts between them and musical performers' roadies.  Unsurprisingly, this was the result:


212

Then:  Newly built and vacant

Now:  Post Pike Bar

I'd expected, in this middle part of this series, to complain about how builders have adapted to the rise of the "new homeless" (that is, unhoused people; the "old homeless" were usually housed in poverty housing that's no longer allowed to exist).  Adapted primarily by eliminating old-fashioned doorways.  And there are examples in the areas I discuss; for example, the new building at the northeast corner of University Way NE and NE 50th St.  But there are also counter-examples.  In Sound Transit's new construction at both the Capitol Hill and the U-District stops, there are doorways, and the one H Mart plans to move into looks promising:


Well, years earlier, there was a new building at the southeast corner of Broadway E and E Thomas St, it was built with one vast and several large doorways, and according to a man I first met in the vast doorway and mentioned several times in "Sleepless", a man I now haven't seen for years, the owner would, then, even let homeless people sleep in the heated garage out back.

Times have changed.  There are certainly lots of barriers to all the merely large doorways.  There's also been a gate at that vast doorway for some time now.  I found it open, but then I found the bar open too.  This is the first (southernmost, basically) of three places I went back to this morning to re-photograph.


I can't photograph it for this page, dear Diary, because I never slept, or noticed anyone who slept, in the medium-sized doorway at 224, now the doorway of Rondo Japanese Kitchen, but I can certainly express my approval of that ungated, reasonable-sized patch of dry.

300

Then and Now:  Julia's

My first Christmas homeless, I fasted as much as I could, but by evening still needed to find a restroom.  I found one here, and my money was refused.  So I was disappointed, though not surprised, to find this:


"Bathroom for Customers Only".  Well, at least it isn't as stereotypical as "No Public Restrooms".  Julia's is far less a presence on Broadway than it was a decade ago, but even now it can do tired cliches with a little flair.

312

Then:  Red Light Vintage

Now:  Lifelong Thrift Store

I never slept at the main entrance, that I recall, though I think I tried to sleep once at the side door.  I never got the impression that it was a place people could sleep the night through (on occasions when I didn't sleep much, and there were people there at, say, midnight, they wouldn't be there at 6 A.M.), and the main entrance didn't meet my evolving criteria, notably for a right angle into which I could nestle myself.  But anyway, with Lifelong's arrival came gates.



No address

No shop

At the northeast corner of Broadway E and E Harrison St stands a shelterish-looking thing that has confused many naive homeless people:

However, dear Diary, that narrow patch of dry you see in back is all anyone gets.  This is strictly a summertime place.

400

Then:  Not sure

Now:  Mattress Firm

At the time I'm thinking of, 2013-2014, this was definitely a mattress store, but I think the name was different.

Homeless women who sleep in doorways normally make efforts to make their sex indiscernible.  So I tend to assume that any doorway sleeper whose sex is indiscernible, such as the only person I ever saw sleeping at this doorway, is a woman.  But I never saw anyone enter or leave that sleeping bag, so have no way to be sure.

412

Then:  Samurai Noodle

Now:  Due' Cucina Italiana

This is where I slept for over a year, my last continuous stretch on Capitol Hill.  It had so much to recommend it.  It was deep, and almost always mostly dry.  (It sloped downward, so the mortar between the tiles channeled water, for example from customers' boots, back toward the street.)  It had an overhead light allowing me good light to set up my bed by, but that consistently shut off, at 11 P.M. I think.  I was able to work - paid employment - from this doorway from January to April 2014.  For the first year I slept there, nobody stole anything from me.

I remember that once in my homeless life, someone asked to sleep adjacent to me, a pretty young woman.  I think it was here, but just possibly I'm wrong, and it was much earlier, at 212.  I think it was here because 212 was always lit, and I think it was dark when she arrived.  She had left by the time I woke.

After the first year, things started going downhill.  My glasses did get stolen, in July 2014.  This prompted "Stealing from the Homeless", which, months later, got my storage in Milwaukee (I then had two units) out of hock.  But by then I'd started staying at the University of Washington all the time, partly to enable the mountain of criminological research that went into "Stealing".  So when I came back in January 2015 to start another tax season, I was upset to find that someone with a key had taken to holding after-parties in the restaurant - after bartime, that is.  Well, he had more right than I to be there, but I needed my sleep.  So I moved north.

When Due' Minuti, now Due' Cucina, moved in, in 2016, I tried again, but Due' had arranged for deliveries from Charlie's Produce, which just happened to absolutely have to arrive at 3 A.M. when nobody from the restaurant was around.  Also, those helpful tiles had become worn, some were missing, and Due', or the owner, just removed them; no more wicking.  I had little reason left to be on Capitol Hill - I didn't know it then, but I wouldn't be employed again while homeless, wouldn't need to be close to the clothing in the Seattle storage unit I still have as I write this, on Capitol Hill.  Since the new place I'd found was basically unsatisfactory to sleep in, I just showered less, until I found out about the Urban Rest Stop's new U-District location; after that, I showered weekly as I had while south, but changed clothing less often.

This is the second one I had to go back to, because my original photo or photos didn't take.  I found that someone had moved a lot of stuff.

My guess is that the dumpsters were placed defensively, but whether by a camper or by the restaurant I couldn't say.  But the cardboard in back looks like a camper's leavings.  Probably someone's whom the Charlie's guy woke at 3.

414

Then and Now:  Seattle Cigar and Tobacco

Two stories I told years ago were about this doorway.  The guy next to me whose backpack had been stolen, in "Stealing", was sleeping here the night after the theft.  And in my Reddit AMA, I talked about a guy I was certain had been slumming, probably to prove something in some conversation, and who left me two days' worth of leftovers - this is where he was.  I never slept here because I never wanted my sleeping bag to come into contact with mats, carpeting, or anything else I figured was hard to clean.  (I put up with a mat at the only place I could find within a mile or two of Seattle Pacific University, once when I needed to spend several days in its library to catch up on Jeffrey Overstreet's Christian fantasy series, but not that I recall anywhere else.)

This morning I found someone sleeping there, covered in a blanket, but I'm pretty sure the person was a black man.  To find only one person sleeping on Broadway - admittedly as late as 7 A.M., but on Christmas, when there's nowhere to go and, in many cases, no reason to leave the doorway one's in - well, maybe there's been tremendous progress in housing the homeless in Seattle in the last few months, but I don't think so.  Anyway, my guess is that the person I found here had been at 412 until Charlie's arrived.

424

Then and Now:  Hardware Salon

This was a place I slept at least a few times when Samurai Noodle's doorway was unexpectedly unavailable.  I was always nervous about it because it was posted with some sort of "keep out" sign, unlike, then, any of the other places I slept, except, if I did ever sleep there, what is now Lifelong's side door.  Apparently they wanted me to be nervous, because they were the first store to put up a gate that I noticed.

It's still there.  I doubt, in fact, that any of these gates will go away before the buildings do.  After all, that would be wasteful.


This is the third place on Broadway I had to go back to this morning, because I'd confused the place next door with this one the first time round.

534

Then and Now:  Hour Eyes Optical

This was my last outpost on Capitol Hill, the neighbourhood I've still lived longest in, in Seattle.  I never stayed here full time; even during the tax season of 2015, I tried as hard as I could to get a schedule that would allow me to sleep north, then come in the morning to Capitol Hill and downtown to shower and change.  This is basically because, like American Apparel's doorway, this one's dry is unreliable.  Tonight I found it working fine:


But I remember one night (of, admittedly, epic rain) finding it flooded.

On the other hand, the employees of Espresso Vivace next door sometimes left leftovers behind for people like me, and one night when one of the employees of Hour Eyes Optical worked late, he actually apologised to me for having worried me about whether I could sleep that night.

538

Then:  A succession of restaurants

Now:  Star Fusion and Bar

The only real alternative I had to Hour Eyes Optical, an under-awning area north of the building, always disappointed me, probably for the same reason it's now disappointing the restaurant's employees:  it offers much less and less reliable dry than it looks like it should offer.

 

Well, dear Diary, that's my Broadway story, and all for now.  Happy hours until I can continue this page, let alone this series.